Intro:

The beginning of a new decade seemed like a good time to give this a try. I don't know if anyone will really care or not, but I'm gonna have fun doing it and that's all that matters.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Growing up...

Sometimes I think about growing up. It's hard not to with facebook bombarding me with friends getting married, having babies, etc. The craziest part is they're mostly people who are younger than me. I don't feel like I've gotten older, but here are kids I used to teach who are now well into college; people who were born in 1990 will be able to drink this year; kids born in 2000 are in middle school.

I remember when I first felt old like this. I was directing Jungle Book and my friend Kenny was assistant directing and we were brainstorming with the kids to figure out themes for the Saturday rehearsals. Kenny suggested the '80s and one of the kids...not even one of the youngest, mind you, said, "What's the '80s?" Wow. Seriously? Quite a shock.

It all makes me think.

I'm almost 30 now and what do I have to show for it? I want a career. I'd like a family at some point while I can still play with my kids when they're old enough to run around; you know, throw a football, ride bikes, build a tree-house...stuff like that. It gets kind of heavy.

I do realize that 30 isn't old and I still can accomplish things and I have a lot of life ahead of me. I don't feel like I've gotten older, but seeing everyone else I know growing around me makes me wonder, have I really gotten that much older? It's a lot to ponder. I look at life plans and think about goals and time lines and just the very fact that I'm doing that makes me feel older. It's a spiral; down or up though, I'm not sure.

No matter where I end up in my thoughts though, I come back to this:

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Till next time...
Posted by Brylan at 12:38 AM

1 comment:

  1. AnonymousJanuary 25, 2011 at 8:39 AM

    Being a grown up doesn't mean giving up happiness or youthful thoughts or fun or imagination. It means taking on the world as an equal. Owning it. Creating your own path into the future. Defining yourself and taking responsibility for your own survival. Sometimes it's scary. Sometimes it's more challenging than others. But there are other grown ups out there who are willing to help you when you really need it. Grownups you will be happy to help when they need it. Grownups do what has to be done simply because it has to be done. There is endless satisfaction in that. Grownups take pleasure in playing in, around, and after the accomplishment of the work that needs to be done. But I think the best part of being a grownup is finding the greatest reward in parenting. True, kids can be parents, but they're still kids. Grownups have a wealth of experience, coping strategies, survival skills, and a depth of love that cannot be matched by someone who has resisted the call of responsibility. Welcome to my world. Truly.

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